I haven’t written a blog post in ages.
Honestly, I kinda fell out of love with the whole thing. Added to this, I’ve had a lot going on in the background, so it just fell by the wayside. The longer I went without writing a post, the more difficult it got.
But it’s not all bad.
Those of you who follow me on Twitter will know that I’ve been inundated with medical appointments and tests. As exhausting as this has been, it has also led to me being diagnosed with fibromyalgia. Obviously I would much rather not have fibromyalgia, but finally knowing what is causing the debilitating symptoms I’ve been experiencing is something of a relief.
There are more issues yet to be diagnosed and/or resolved. I’m currently on the waiting list for a scan at the hospital, but I’ve been told it could be three months before I even receive my appointment slot. Of course, this is really frustrating, and I’m left to just live with the pain for now, but I am glad that I’m at least on the list.
Following an appointment with the psychiatrist, my mental health diagnoses have changed. In addition, a psychological assessment with a psychologist found that I am eligible for treatment. Again, I’m on the waiting list, but this one is around 18 months long. I’m both relieved and saddened. Relieved to be on the list; saddened that I’m somewhat in limbo for the next year and a half.
There is so much more I could say about all these medical issues, but to be totally honest, I’m sick of explaining it. Having to repeat myself to different medical and mental health professionals has taken its toll.
Moving away from health things, I’ve also been doing a lot more writing, just not in blog form. I’ve been slowly working on what I hope will be my first novel.
It’s not easy – chronic illness throws up multiple obstacles – but I am making progress. Even if it takes years, I’m going to do this. Even if nothing comes from it, it’s important for me to complete this project.
I’ve also started back volunteering at a peer-led arts and crafts for mental health group. It’s once a week for two hours, which doesn’t sound like much, but it’s really knocked me for six.
I am struggling to get back into the swing of things; anxiety, pain, and severe fatigue are a tricky combination to manage, and I’m feeling quite overwhelmed by it at the moment. I’m hoping things will get easier as I get used to the routine again.
These are the main things going on with me at the moment. It’s not everything, but this feels like enough to write about for now. I might say more later. Maybe.
Thank you to everyone who keeps up with me on Twitter. I appreciate your support so much.
Feel free to tell me about your current situation or projects in the comments below.